Friday, June 10, 2005

ok.. long time no blog.. starting off with my complain ! .. complain make me feel better.. so i must complain !! .. ok this week.. june.. is nt a good week for me.. basically.. sch have started and i think that i just cant seem to adapt to my new class and the module that we have. the time sux.. the people here have completely different interest with me and it seem lk that i cant struck a conversation with them. this year.. really damn sux.. the project come lk no nd money.. the due date is damn near.. and my head is damn pain..

those ppl in the another batch.. 1.1 i thik.. is really crazy.. all aiming for AD .. really.. i going mad if this go on.. pia project damn fast.. and everythign they sae is project.. grade and etc... k they are not that really bad.. maybe just that i slack too much.. really stressing me up now.. i must get AD for this.. i must get AD for that.. wah.. HEADACHE !!! .. i am a slacker .. a D grade student.. buay tahan !!! then project must chiong chiong chiong.. wa lau.. i shall not comment.. just make this a case of different view and working method.

ok .. i been seriously thinking about few things this week. first... to get a cca or nt.. i don nd the freaking cCA point.. but i just think that i nd a CCA to make my schedule more fun la.. everyday study all tat.. go home lie there n slack.. damn bored.. go sch see the AD student.. really think i nd a cca.. to make myself busy.. maybe that will make me treasure the life i have more. hope soccer have trial n they accept year 3.. i wan to go for the trial. ..

next.. i am SERIOUSLY thinking about quiiting NP.. i really hate the way things are done and the lousy crappy idiotic system they have. a class gt 2 different batch of IS student.. WTF!!! might as well ask them split class with us .. .. its stupid lor.. the thurs they gt lesson i don have.. i prefer all to have lesson lor.. at least i can noe them better.. then can also come back on thurs n do project.. this is damn crappy.. and the bloody marketing module.. WHOOOSH !!! fantastic.. totally not suitable for me i think.. think i going to die n rot in this module.. i am DETERMINE to be a free rider this sem.. HECK CARE !!!!

i really feel lk quiiting NP.. go NS first.. after that come out.. follow what i really wan to do. i want to be a chef.. but it seem impossible.. too late to go learn cooking.. and too late to apply to that don noe wat place.. for me to learn all the cooking stuff. . next i wanted to form a band n really cut an album.. but think about that.. i cant find some really committed and good friend that form with me.. i find no vocal guitarist and worst of all the DRUMMER.. i cant find.. can find .. also play different thing.. i don noe what to sae.. haiz.. even can form.. its difficult ot make it big.. singaporean is conservative.. any sight of GOTHIC n VISUAL will freak them out.. any violent or bloody words will be censor.. and of course.. what the crappy govt think is not suitable.. also must censor.. this is the same as writting national day song lor.. write osmething gd.. educational.. ok la .. FxxK OFF with that lor.. singapore band industry is not that gd either.. how to strilke it big.. ?? i really don noe.. sometime.. what i really hope is that .. i sleep.. than later heart attack and i die.. no nd to worry also lor.. so many thign to think about.. so many freaking troubles.. and so little time n solution..

- i lied on the bed..
thinking what i could done..
i know i not that good..
i know i not that sociable..
i only know.. those who i love..
will leave me..

roger lost his dreams 6/10/2005 05:31:00 PM

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