Tuesday, September 27, 2005

its the third wk.. n i really think . i going crazy.. all this stupid nightmare i been having... it just somehow killing me mentally.. yeah.. i think i am going to be mad anytime.. slpiing use to be my fav ... but now.. i just don dare to slp..

guys.. if u all like someone.. just do wat u can to win her heart.. don bother so much bout other things..just do wat u feel is rite.. and stop being stupid and gif the person u like to others..

third week an counting... how long it nd.. i don noe.. may it be .. one month.. 6 months.. or 1 year.. i be right here waiting for the day she is ok and willing to tok to me . . . . .

roger lost his dreams 9/27/2005 02:05:00 PM

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

i just did something stupid yesterday.. i tried to give up on my most impt dreams.. why do i feel so regret now.. izzit really cos i really cant let it go .. i donnoe.. wo shi zhen de fan bu liao shou . .

roger lost his dreams 9/14/2005 01:58:00 PM

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Monday, September 12, 2005

.... ok .. 2 paper down.. one last one to go .. so wat if the 2 paper are down.. i going to fail it.. and i have not started on my last paper.. i think i am too lazy.. and too slack.. i really don noe wat to blog about.. and wat shld i blog.. sae wrong thing..also not good.. sae gd thing.. i don feel good..

don noe ar don noe.. i really don noe.. i just wanted to do wat i wan... live as i like.. and slack whenever i feel like.. i don noe.. sometime i hope i gt split personality.. one side of me will take in all the unhappy things.. and another side will take in all the happy stuiff.. like that.. i can dont think of all the bad things and stupid things.. and maybe.. the world may be a bit more nicer to live in.. ok ytd is sunday.. which i keep forgetting.. i work with wq to gif out flyer.. gif out about 2 k ? ... n now then i noe how singaporean is behaving.. now hten i noe.. flyer is like bomb.. they run at the sight of it.. come on la.. ask u all take.. take liao wan to throw away.. i don care.. but stop behaving like it will explode lor.. run so fast and so far.. but heng.. gt ppl take from me.. i hope they all strike lottery.. win 4D .. get the top prize in lucky draw..

ok now i can comfirm something.. i will hate the show mr fighting.. i just don noe why.. maybe the producer hate me ? or maybe i just sux at sunday midnite.. cos my luck is alway at the lowest at that time.. everytime quarrel or gt bad thing happen.. its on a sunday nite.. and of course i be the time i be watchign that stupid show.. what so good is that i just watch for the sake of watching.. i don lk the show.. i don lk the cast.. and i just switch to that channel.. and all the shit happen.. -.-... 5566.. wat did do to u in my previous life.. how coem the show now is like my nightmare.. dot dot dot.... and i don noe wats wrong with my hp.. it seem to alway convey the wrong msg to ppl.. i am not unhappy and etc.. and somehow.. ppl received it.. and will think that i am bad mood.. i am smiling while sending sms.. and they can think that i wan to quarrel.. eh.. maybe.. they shld abolish sms.. n let us use 3G.. see the face.. its better in that way.. trust me..

ok.. after mcom paper.. i do somethign stupid.. i bring someone to shi hui hse. then i din do anything.. and i wasted ppl time.. then ppl cannot revise mcom.. ok its my fault.. i admit.. but i was just trying to watch for the dog.. don let it run into the room lor.. ok la.. suan le.. lazy to sae.. treat it as an excuse or wateva.. i don noe wat to sae.. and i don feel liek saying.. whenever i start to do or sae soemthing.. pppl start scolding.. me.. ytd kenna twice.. thanks mr wq.. and that watchign 5566 show one ar.. fantastic.. i don noe why.. maybe i should considering.. useing thread to sew my mouth up.. think it will help greatly.... so what ppl have different mindset.. perception .. tihnking.. friends... and wateva.. cannot even try to mix around meh.. aiya.. i don noe la.. first time in my life.. the more i blog.. i more irritated i am.. the more pain my head is.. ok this is for real.. i hope later when i go out.. the lightenign strike me.. let me die in an instant.. then no worries.. yup.. that will be gd..

-no mood for anythign today -
- don wan to die pls don irritate me -

roger lost his dreams 9/12/2005 12:45:00 PM

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Saturday, September 03, 2005

ok i am back to write somemore.. i know u all will be shock.. suddenly.. the guy who only updates once every month.. start to blog almost once every 2 wks.. but trust me ppl.. it will not last too long. . .

k . finally ip is over.. i can RELAX awhile.. but the clever np big head principle decided to let us have the paper on next fri n sat.. golden weekeend.. fantastic idea.. and 2 paper in a row.. 2 difficult paper in a row.. yea.. gd idea.. wonder how he tot of that.. damn it.. so i have decided. take my time.. and start revision on mon.. also at the same time.. hope i can pass the paper..

thurs.. went to eat pastamania with wq.. order the tuna with bacon one.. which is one of the pasta dish that i tried to cook so hard.. and yet i fail miserably.. that is so irritating.. but nevertheless.. i manage ot steal some tips from the food there.. shall try cooking it and pass to otehrs to let them try.. after eating.. walk round then i go PS buy my stuff.. finally i go PS n get my stuff.. then i go star buck with them to drink.. n i spend lots of money..

today.. friday.. meet wq.. go to the sabrina work place. cos we sae we are working for her today to gif out flyers.. first time in my life.. i spent so much time on the bus n mrt.. go eunos from je then after tat go clementi.. cause we are post to clementi.. . k wats so special bout this job.. nothign is so special.. except.. when i reach there.. no one .. told me..stephanie mom and autie were there.. good lor.. n i tok crap.. and even better.. they were just sitting behindme.. listening to wat i was saying... n up till now. i still don noe wat to sae.. anyway.. heck care la.. do i gif a damn !?! .. the truth is i do gif a little .. hahahaha.. quite enjoy that job.. din noe i luv giving out flyers so much.. 2 hrs.. gif out 300++ i think... n its the first time in my life that i smile so much.. hmmm.... no wonder so much ppl take flyer from me..

this 2 days. don noe wats wrong.. i think i seriously need to go and visit the doctor.. firstly.. i seriously think that i gt serious mental problem.. i have been starting to talk lots of thing that i won said normally.. and quite a few ppl have sae that i am crazy.. i don noe y.. maybe the weather too hot ? .. my brain cant take it.. and now it just snap .. and i am crazy.. secondly.. i think .. i am becoming gay.. no !!! I DON WAN TO BE A GAY??!!!!!! who can help me with 10 ways to test if u are a gay and 10 ways to prevent yourself from being gay.. i will reward u.. being gay is scary.. for me at least.. haiz..

hmmm.. sian.. really bored.. been slacking the whole night in front of the com.. don noe wat to do. .. hmm.. don noe why.. seem to start thinking bout lots of thing.. have u all ever wonder.. if someday.. u notice that a person that u like and which u have been toking for bout 2 yrs ? .. is totally not someone that u noe her to be.. how will u feel..
example.. after 2 years.. then u noe that u have totally no idea on how this person behave and how she think.. how will you feel.. i really don noe bout that ... now then i notice.. after 2 yrs.. i don even noe what type of person she is.. what she like.. and wats her view on certain things.. izzit me tat is slow.. or izzit her tat is strange.. i really don know. .

exam is coming and yet.. i am being bother bout all this stuff.. i really don know wats the problem with me.. i really don know.. sometimes i do really hope that a book will drop down form the sky.. and inside.. it will tell me all the solution to each and every possible problems that i will face.. if anyone of you happen to see that book. pls tell me.. i wan to buy.. haiz.. life really sux.. its boring.. full of shit... and also.. directly opposite of wat tat pppl hope for.. i rem my friend once told me.. y must we study 5 days n rest 2 days ? y not study 2 and rest 5 days ?.. life are just like htat it is not fair at all.. bad thing come to me in 90% chances.. while good thigns.. only come with a 10% chances.. its just aint fair... i really don noe wat to sae.. and wat to do.. haiz..

headache.....dizzy.. fan nao.. problems.. sianzz.. bored... troubles... tire.... headache.....dizzy.. fan nao.. problems.. sianzz.. bored... troubles... tire.... headache.....dizzy.. fan nao.. problems.. sianzz.. bored... troubles... tire.... headache.....dizzy.. fan nao.. problems.. sianzz.. bored... troubles... tire.... headache.....dizzy.. fan nao.. problems.. sianzz.. bored... troubles... tire.... headache.....dizzy.. fan nao.. problems.. sianzz.. bored... troubles... tire.... => wat i been feelign this week.. haiz..

-i open my eyes..
only to see the dark side of the world..
i open my hand..
just to grab the lost hope that have fallen on me..
i open my mouth..
just to scream out loud..
i wanna be free..
from this world..
this cage of chaos darkness.. and pain .

roger lost his dreams 9/03/2005 03:55:00 AM

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